Iris

It’s was a call that woke me in the in the early grey hours just before dawn. All week I've been expecting this call, and my throat filled with heart every time the phone rang. There's no going back to sleep now. The voice on the line is disturbingly collected and I feel nothing.

I think we all expect life to be like in the movies from time to time with instant chocks and spiring crescendos, but here in my room, life takes its time to crawl under my skin - meander through the grey matter to finally rest in that shrine of memories weaved in neurons. I have a hero there safely wrapped in myth and recollections, and when I draw on this corner of my mind I smell a little home in Enköping, Sweden, with the promise of good food, and afternoon walks. I see a smiling face and I feel love, kindness, strength, compassion, but most of all the brightness of a spirits - that never aged or withered.

This morning, my beloved grandmother passed. My eyes burn as I head for bed tonight - I've been tapped dry of tears.

13 comments:

thinker said...

I am sorry for your loss, Emily.

Diana Evans said...

Hi Emily....I am so sorry to hear about your Grandmother's passing....you will be in my thoughts and prayers...

Bless you and your family...

Hugs
Diana

sketched out said...

It's nearly impossible to know what to say, but your beautiful, poetic words very gracefully say it all of her wonderful spirit. My hear hurts for you. Warmest hugs Emily.

Emily said...

thank you.

flower girl said...

Hi emily,
I am so sorry about your grandmother.
I always follow your blog, you have a very lovely and beautiful one. and you are so talented. =)

Bobo's Slave said...

Oh Emily, I'm so sorry to hear this. A big virtual hug from me, take care.

Peter Breese said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

kathy hare said...

Emily, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you my friend.. x

Curious Art said...

Oh, Emily, I lost my grandmother in November as well, so I understand the pain completely... but could never have expressed it so perfectly. My heart goes out to you.

Mary said...

I am so sorry! Consider this a hug and you will be in my prayers today.

Bella Sinclair said...

I'm so terribly sad and sorry. What you wrote is eloquent and beautiful. I am reaching my arms out across oceans and mountains to give you a warm hug and a handful of prayers.

yoon see said...

And I am so sorry for this too.
Time will heal, Emily all you need is some good time to let go this sadness!
I am with you here with a sincere prayer.

Shugar said...

Oh I am so sorry to hear this.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers today.
Hug*