in my absence

About 3 weeks ago my world was shaken in a way I will feel for the rest of my life. My mother was diagnosed with stage 1 cancer - but it was extremely aggressive and by last week it was a stage 4.
 
My beautiful mother Merrilyn died on saturday in Arizona at 2:37pm, it was a beautiful sunny day.
 
I am sorry that I haven't been able to answer comments or post much since I got her diagnosis and I hope to get back to that and drawing bunnies and stuff soon. - lots of hugs, Em

39 comments:

theartofpuro said...

Hi,I'm so sorry for your loss and I think every word I can say isn't enough!I will prey for her soul and prey for you.The only thing I can say is that you'll never forget her but one day you'll wake up and the pain will be gone away and you'll remember only the great moments with her:)

sassypackrat said...

So sorry to hear of your loss.

Karen M said...

So sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you.

Jen Appel said...

I add my name to the list as well - sorry to hear of your loss.

Mundo Mundaca said...

Dear Emely.. I am so sorry a lot for pain and your irreparable loss.
I know that anything that we say will console you at this time and to say that the pain will pass and everything will be more bearable with the days seems until your suffering.
If you wants to cry... cries.
if you wants to scream.. . screams.
all express their feelings.. why is that human being.. that is to live in the fullness of everything that we tried in this life.
you sweet mother now is an angel.. and one day you anger to meet again la and committees will tread other roads beside our Lord.
A big hugs,
Yasmin

spindelmaker said...

My deepest condolences. I am so sorry for your loss. Take the time you need to cherish her.

Maria Bogade said...

Dear Emely, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can hardly imagine how hard this must be for you. Anything said will not make up for your loss but still I hope you find the strength to get through these dark times of yours.

Sissy Sparrows said...

Oh my....such sadness so sorry.

Zari said...

this is so surprising and painful that i don't know what to say!
I'm truly sorry for your lost my dear Emily, I'll pray for your mom's soul; that she may rest in peace...and for you to find all the strengh you'd need to get through such a difficult time.
A big hug!

Meagan said...

I'm so sorry. Wishing you healing.

ale balanzario said...

My dear Emily,
Im so sorry for your lost, in moments like this, its so difficult for me to find the right words to say to you, I will pray for you and your mom, Take time to heal,
Hugs for you.
Ale.

Mademoizelle Margaut said...

My deepest condolences. I am so sorry...

Margaut

Owl Eng said...

very sorry for your loss..
do take good care of yourself.

Gregory Gunther said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Wow, that was a quick timeline. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

cassia said...

huge best wishes at such a tough time. it's a terrible, terrible thing...

tusen said...

Oh, Emily, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sending my warmest thoughts to you.

Clare Wassermann said...

sending you a big hug x

Xovika said...

Dear Emily ... What a hard time ... I just can't imagine how hard it could be ... I pray for you to pass these days calmly , cause I think your beloved mommy wants to see you happy. However it's impossible. I wish I could be there :(

thinker said...

So sorry for your loss.

Philip Morgan said...

To Emily, I'm very sorry for your loss, and hope that the words of all these lovely people help you through a very difficult time. Phil

Emily said...

Thank you all for your kind words! they bring me glimmers of comfort in these hard times.

Bella Sinclair said...

Oh Emily..... Oh my goodness, I am so tremendously sorry to read this. Shocked and heartbroken at the same time. It was much too fast, such a hateful dreaded disease. I'm sorry, my lovely friend. Prayers and a thousand warm hugs to you and your family.

xoxoxox

joseph's art and stuff said...

this post was so sad to read, i am so sorry that this has happened to your mother, i will be praying for both of you.

Ces said...

Oh dear Emily! I am so sorry! What a great loss. I am thinking of you and holding you up in my prayers. I am so heartbroken for you. God bless your Mother.

Sara said...

Oh sweet dear Emily big big hugs to YOU. I cannot even begin to express the breadth of sorrow & sympathy I have for you & your family. I cannot even imagine if that were to happen to anyone close to me, much less my mother who has become my closest friend as I grew older.
Hugs & wishes and softness to you.

sketched out said...

Oh, you poor sweetie. My heart is breaking for you. I'm sending you a giant bear hug of condolence.

laughingwolf said...

so sorry for the loss of your beloved mom... :(

mine died of alzheimer's years ago, leaving a hole in my soul never to be filled

Debra Cooper said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss and so quickly. Your mother will live very strongly within you and guide you through the pain. It is a pain that will never go away but remember that each time you feel it deep inside, your mother is right there beside you.

I have lost my mother when she was 49 and I was 5 m o pregnant, that was 21 years ago and I know she is with me every time my heart aches.

I wish you all the best and know you are not alone.

Tammie Lee said...

oh my goodness, I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I send my heart to yours~

pve design said...

my thoughts are with you.
pve

Renee Troy said...

My heart goes out to you. There are no words except I'm sorry for your loss. It has to be devastating. Take it a day at a time. However, art does saves lives. Perhaps you can use it to express what you feel.
Just a thought.
Take good care!

Xovika said...

Every time I remind you during the day ,I wish you peace and happiness. And I'm waiting for you amazing artworks.

TrüSka said...

Shut your eyes... and feel my warm strong hug from across the Atlantic... A big kiss for you my sweet friend! : ***

Anonymous said...

i only today discovered your art through Moo, but reading of your loss, and becoming an orphan myself at the premature age of 33...

Forgive the platitude, but i only wanted to encourage you by saying that in my case, and now 18 years later, she is still very much present in my daily life and all that i do. The departure of her body did not include her soul, nor the love she both taught me of and showered our family with.

Once the most acute of the grief has passed, i hope you too find that those most precious never really leave us. The love we share ensure their presence for as long as one of us lives.

gentle thoughts...

kanishk said...

So sorry to hear of your loss.

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Angela Matteson said...

You have my deepest condolences, and I'm sending you a warm hug of support.

Jenea said...

Oh my dearest Emily, I am so sorry for your big lose...
Mother, it's the most importantly thing in our life.

Please accept my condolences.

It' an Evolution said...

Emily
I am finally getting back to blogging and came across your entry. I am so sorry to learn of the passing of your mother...cancer is a terrible thing. My thoughts are with you.
Looks like your newer posts show you getting back into life. Everything looks amazing.
Love
Janet

bakkanekko said...

awh man! I love your bunnies! and your creative arts! :DD so fun to see!